Feb 1, 2011

Go big or go home.

Let me just begin by saying that I recognize my problem. In my medical book under personality disorders it is labeled "grandiosity." And so it begins...

My $100 digital camera fell off of the island and now makes a buzzing noise when turned on and will not take pictures or show anything on the screen.

And so I begin Google-ing.

The smart decision is to go with the same brand camera because I did that the last time and now I have two camera chargers and two batteries.

So this would be the smartest route:But this is what I really want:

But this is what I really really want:

A friend gave me a Polaroid Land Camera 80A because she was going through her grandma's stuff and found the camera still in the box and thought it looked just like me. I really really really want to save my money and get it refurbished at landcameras.com.

But after perusing several hip photography blogs for cool cameras I have decided.

THIS is what I really really really really want:

To start a business that would convert vintage cameras into digital point and shoots.

There is a niche for people that have wads of money and Photoshop and can make anything look professional or a niche for people that only use film cameras or a niche for restoring Polaroid cameras. But no niche for someone like me that just wants a cool vintage digital camera that is not a little silver box.

Here's where the problem comes to light... I have spent all morning researching and I began to get the feeling that I was on to the next big thing. BUT I still don't have a simple camera to post photos on my blog. And now I am depressed because that is what happens when people that struggle with grandiosity are "confronted by a failure to fulfill their high opinion of themselves."

I hope YOU have a great day. I really really really really really need to be sewing.

P.S. I can't ever post a blog without feeling the need to Jesus-Juke myself.

1 Corinthians 4:7-8 The Message
For who do you know that really knows you, knows your heart? And even if they did, is there anything they would discover in you that you could take credit for? Isn't everything you have and everything you are sheer gifts from God? So what's the point of all this comparing and competing? You already have all you need...

I do. I truly feel that I have all I need. Anything else is pure wants. I am very thankful for everything God has blessed our family with and I have no desire to appear ungrateful.

P.P.S. I used the blog CameraLuv to get my pictures. Because I don't have a camera of my own. Remember? :)

2 comments:

Katie said...

So I just read about Jesus Juking and am feeling thoroughly reprimanded. :) It perfectly defines what I do to David on a regular basis... mostly with jokes he passes on from his man-friends or something he heard on Johnboy and Billy.

He will be pleased that I'm now motivated to change.

It's also kind of ironic (and definitely shows my hypocrisy) that I just spent 15 minutes watching Coach Hines videos on youtube.

ps. I think you should get the camera that you really really want. It looks really really cool.

hubbardgirl said...

joni, this comment is just to let you know that i will now start commenting on your blog again:) just saying in all my child busyness, etc. i have waaaay too many senior moments. (was just a small thing like forgetting my password) duh!!!!!